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What more can I say.  This man I deeply admired. I loved the show NO RESERVATIONS.

It allowed me to travel vicariously to countries I only saw in an atlas.

I watched his no nonsense charismatic self endear to locals everywhere; including us in Australia.

I feel so sad that a person like him, still had to take his own life.  WHY????

Like all of us touched by this scourge.

Especially; like others, he had a beautiful loving wife, daughter.

It is selfish disease.   Yet so young.

We , as a world of food lovers, armchair travelers and food snobs, will be a little less joyful .  For you are not walking among us.


PLEASE seek help, talk to anyone, just do not leave loved ones wondering why.

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“I Like You”

It’s a simple three words, spoken by all of us; at one time or another.

But the real question is – which one is it?

Is it the one where people say it just to placate you?


Or (in a condescending tone of voice) state it a bit too loudly as so everyone around can hear ‘their’ justification of acknowledging you??


Is it the one that family and friends say because they don’t want to seem to be too sappy / sentimental/emotional. When they really mean that there is love in their thoughts and heart for you??


Of course the follow on one from this is said in a softer edged and sensual tone of voice. Indicating an underlying desire, for that person to want you to know that they do have, some sort of, emotional feelings for you.


There is the PROFESSIONAL “Ï Like You”.   This is the one we all get from our bosses / coworkers / department managers etc.  At times it is mainly non emotional and duly means that they like you as an employee but that’s as far as the relationship goes. And they recognize your contribution to making the organisation ‘look good.’ (sic)

SO when your own world – personal and professional – is a bit all over the place how do you interpret these 3 simple words? And do you take it at face value for the way it was verbalized? (at the time).

Or do you listen to it and mull over it for some time either then or later, wondering what bought on this declaration, from that person?

How does one decipher the intention of the words?

Do we seek advice from a friend / BFF / Bro’ or family trusted family member?  Even then do you go on online to see what the Social Media crowd have got to say about it? Unlike the other 3 little words these ones are definitely open for interpretation.


Now my question to the one who said this to me a few weeks back.  What I heard at the time was the “I (really do) like you”.  You said it in that quieter soft voice.  Since then I been waiting for you to do something about it.

Because, I know that “I really do like you”.

Every day I see you – I still smile. You make me feel happy and I really do want to know you and what makes you tick.

I am not sure how to make this thing between us move forward and there is something because I see you smile and the way your eyes have that sparkle and that slight awkwardness between us, at work.

I do care about your work /life balance. I like your professional ethics and management style.  Maybe I am wrong (deluded from too many books and movies LOL).   So maybe /was I wrong and misinterpreted the “I Like You”

It must have been the professional courtesy one; all along.

Easter is over and i have a tummy ache.


Once again, it has been far too long between ‘drinks’ oops I mean blog posts.

Although- come to think about it – it has been a long while since I had a nice glass of vino.

There has been so much going on in the world I have had a bit of writers block.  Where do I start? What should I really comment on? etc etc. yes it has happened to all of us.  How do I know that – wellllllllll !!!!  there are numerous other blogs that post about this particular topic. Even the Daily Post  and The Community Pool had some tips, recently.

I have had plenty of laughs over at The Return Of The Modern Philosophers blog.    Man can Austin pull some type of witty repartee outta the bag, even when he is dog tired from the day job, and its current all about Mr Trump.

Colleen Cheesboro has had me fantasying about all things Fairies, the bottom of the garden and some great links to those helpful sites  -for writers block.

Whilst the contributors to the site called The Seeds for Life have been my de facto cheer squad. Just to get me out of bed and tame / tie up /wrangle the black dog that resides at my house.

As for all of you Thanks.  I hope you all had a very nice Easter.TN_pic073b

Here’s some more candy; just in case you have not had enough.

At the big chain supermarket, where I work, it was frenetic to say the least from as soon as school got out for holidays the week before up till today.

Seriously folks it’s only ONE WHOLE DAY that we are totally shut.  But you spent $$$$$$ like it really was growing on (sustainable regrowth) forest of trees.  That was OK, as far as our management were concerned. It made us look fantastic for the all important bottom line.   As for my team of replenishment experts I was incredibly proud of the way you ( us) all pulled together and got those never ending pallets – split, sorted and onto the shelves as quickly as possible.

The Customer Service team – again you rocked because even though SOME customers thought you were fair game for all their woes, moaning and bad moods ( because Aunty r and Uncle P with their 4 precious kids had dropped in unannounced) you stood tall ( and proud) SMILED and ensured everyone of them it truly was a wonderful day to be alive.

As for those of you WHO THOUGHT THEY COULD SHOPLIFT, just a few extra Easter Treats; well sorry but we really were on to you as soon as you skulked into our stores.  Yes even the paying customers dobbed you in.  So HA!!

OK it did not quite have a 100% strike rate there but it was a lot less than the company anticipated.    Folks  here’s a friendly tip: majority of us are casually employed and Yes it is as hard for us to make ends meet but that does not mean we stoop to your level.  You only make it hard for every one else.   So please stop trying unless you really do ‘want your day in court’.

Now one more extra special thanks:  “Lightning”: I know you are reading this and I know you are still safe. (Thank you Big Guy upstairs.. I feel blessed to know this fact. My own Easter miracle).

I truly loved the BIG bunch of flowers you left at the customer service desk for me..

I only wish you had waited just long enough for me to see you.  They made me cry. Of which I really did not want me peers see me do…. See! they all think I have no heart and I am this emotionless person who they adore as their Team Leader.  So damn you in the nicest possible way.

I still have some of them left sitting in that beautiful hand crafted vase you gave me all those years ago.  So do not forget your mum for Mothers Day.

I hope all of you had a great Easter.   Cheers.5573

Happy Coincidences……

On another blog I write : Valencia Princess is living outside the hexagon.

I posted many pictures about my trip 2 and half years ago to Outback Queensland.  With the 3rd anniversary of my fathers passing, being yesterday, I found myself re reading these posts.   I still get warm and fuzzy feelings whenever I read or see news worthy stories of this area.  Maybe in a past life I actually lived there.

Anyway on Landline today, a fantastic show on the ABC every Sunday about life on the land.  LO and behold there were two stories in one about 2 amazingly terrific people who live there.

Both are prime examples of the resilience and toughness of our rural women.

So I would like you to follow the links to their stories of how they both thought outside the square and became buddy entrepreneurs.

The first woman is Julie Brown from near Ilfracombe, which is situated apx half way between Longreach and Blackall, with her business called Coola Cozzies.

And The other is Joy Mc Clymont from a little further south west of Julie. Her business is Off the track Training.

They are both on Facebook, twitter and Instagram for those of you who utilise these platforms.  So please check them out.

I just want to say “You go girls”because I do know of how hard of life you both have and to be so positive in times of drought makes you both exceptional women. Adding to the already LONG LINE of exceptional men and women who founded our great country.

I wish you both the best of luck with your online businesses. And I definitely will be coming back to your neck of the woods soon.



Today is three years since my dad passed away.

It was  quick agonising death that only took four days. Metastatic Melanoma.

Today I went to the International Airshow at Avalon, because he loved planes, trains, and trucks etc. I thought it would be appropriate to take his spirit there since he never got a chance to go see such a spectacular event.    It was loud, from all the jets and helicopters and PA system, busy with easily 20,000 people doing much the same.  And mindbogglingly fascinating.   I still miss him and wish he was here to share my blogs.

I miss writing letters to him and making his favorite fruitcake with toasted almond slivers on top; and the endless chats over strong black tea with 2 sugars.

i miss cooking him simple hearty meals and the way he would always be interested in what the kids where up to.

I miss everything there is to be said about him.  I still miss my father – Robert “bob”Charles Swain born in Preston, Victoria and passed away, unfortunately in the Andrew Love Cancer Centre Geelong .

So here are some photos of my dad from the earlier years. Damn he was a good looking bloke.

Random Thoughts -part 2


In an earlier post I rambled on , in written form of some of my thoughts.

Yes whether you are bipolar or not the ole’brain, at times just does not shut up.

So here are some of my out loud thoughts for the last 2 week ‘sh.

  •  Wow George and Amel are expecting – twins.  ha ha ha do we all seriously believe that was never gunna happen.   OHHHH sigh!!! lets hope they are beautiful babies but then there is gunna be no shortage of hired help there.  What took you so long?

Queen Bee and hubby big ( or is that little) Jaz are, too, having a coupla more. Of course it was all over the news ( fake and real), Facebook, Instagram etc etc etc. OHH and of course there was the ‘look at me’at the Grammy’s pose. Sheesh !! are you 2 hard up for cash??? What ever happened to keeping it in the immediate family circle???

Anyway THE afore mentioned has me thinkin’I reckon there was a petrie dish helping both couples out. Cos if the Queen and hubby are having twins now how come they didn’t have them first time round??

  • Yikes! Donald is still finger pointing and doing that double barreled ók’ hand thing. What does it all mean??? is it a secret language? Has he made contact with the Auto bots?? Or is it the puppeteer pulling the strings got cramp?


  • Why am I longingly looking at the Pear and apple tree, in our yard; that are heavy with fruit? when I wish I could remotely make jams, pickles, and relishes.  Does this mean I hanker for the life of a step ford wife?   I know I can bake, cook up seriously great meals, plan parties but how is it I missed out on the Jam Gene?


  • Am I alone in thinking that my compassion button has ceased working? For as the eclipse continues and all the horror in the immediate world and all over has me just blankly staring at the newspaper or TV with no emotion.  Yet last night i saw a story on the four new lion cubs at our Werribee Zoo I smiled at their plain kid like behaviors.   And I, also, felt warm and fuzzy as I watched Tony Robinson tell me about Australia’s’ history of explorers.
  • I have decided that my ideal man would be:-( or have parts of) David Attenborough – he is so intelligent, gentlemanly, and just interesting to listen to on any of his favorite subjects.

Kevin McLeod ( Grand Designs fame) omg he is so knowledgeable, handsome, bit debonair and quirky all rolled in one.

Simon Reeve for his youthfulness and ability to make travel , to any far flung part of our world, really interesting.

Our Keith Urban, Troy Casser Daley, or Lee Kernaghan – for all those brilliant lyrics and story telling in music. That just make your heart ache to see the ‘real‘ Australia.

Any number of chefs – as so I could cook alongside of or just be fed.

  • And like all the rest of you Why can I not just post on a daily basis?   This answer I do have- I am still fearful that i am writing basic stuff that is not really that interesting.  Whilst a lot of blogs I follow seem to have found their purpose.
  • So Sorry for the slightly boring post but thats all i got…in among all the other thoughts and songs running through my brain.
  • Have a nice day tomorrow . 🙂

Twas’the night before Valentines

Yes sirree!!! it is the night b4 Valentines and well I am still a bit cynical.

I have tried to cheer up by reading lots of other blogs on the subject.  All I read is how there is heaps of us out there just wanting “the Cinderella”version of the day to happen. Just once.

Since the last post we have definitely had a continuation of the past themes.

BUT with a difference. I, personally, reckon it had something to do with the moon eclipse.

As the world began to dislike POTUS again, we had our Prime Minister.

Yes – Mr Turnball – blue blood, business man,  wearer of very nice tailored suits with ‘that’ harbourside mansion turned to the dark side.

Here he was in Parliament, of all places, suddenly getting down and dirty like a drunken sailor on shore leave. Absolutely giving it to the leader of the opposition. OMG it was so funny to see and hear him sling mud and slander and all things in BTW at the opposition .

No he said she said stuff just plain old you are scum came out of his mouth and boy did most of us google that up a million times, or you tubed it, or even better it started the news at 6pm.   All us ordinary folk suddenly wondered where the other Malcolm had gone to but hey it was damn funny and great to witness.

Then there was the story about how most vitamins are just plain useless and you have all been conned. OMG well done and take a bow you clever marketing people over all those years. You def. earned your bonuses.

Our weather went totally crazy here and in the Northern hemisphere, with snow snow snow and more snow falling all over the USA, huge dams overflowing people being evacuated and yet down under we had SUMMER with a vengeance. The evil Sirocco wind bought 40+ c days; for a whole week; or more in some parts. Then the cyclone turned tropical rain storm in WA bought flooding and damage. Only a week before they were fighting bush fires.  On the weekend the sirocco wind blasted NSW and QLD with devastating bush fires; still burning . The current one is 200km front on it and created its own thunderstorm and lightning. Of which there are spectacular pictures on google.

And tonight our local community goes in to FIGHT mode as the proposed juvenile prison protests begin.  Poor Werribee never seen so many people in its main street ever.

On a more personal level I have decided that my job is boring and I will be leaving real soon.  There is no point in wasting precious energy on that one. ( thank you Eddie Two Hawks and Seeds of Life  for the push)

I spent a nice 2 hours reconciling my past valentines and where I may be going wrong.

But like my favorite blogger The Return of the Modern Philosopher says for all of us hopeless romantics there is always hope.

I wish all of you a happy valentines day. It does not have to be full of flowers and chocolate ( although chocolate is great) or dinners or carriage rides etc. As long as you look at yourself in the mirror and say “Hey your not bad, I like you”.